Broken up, deep inside, but you won't get to see the tears I cried, behind these hazel eyes

Why does it sometimes seem that nothing goes right? Whether it's that you got a u in your history tests or that the love of your life has said that he's not interested, as small as these things seem now, they feel like the end of the world when they happen, you feel yourself going red and your head wanting to break down and cry, but you don't, you keep it together, 'cause life goes on. On with the show as they say. We all know how it feels don't we. You feel like absolute crap when you trip in the middle of the street when a guy you like walks by and laughs or if you are about to impress a certain teacher with work and you write shit instead of ship. Easy mistake huh? What's the easiest mistake? Letting a secret go, to me, it's the hardest thing to keep a secret, secrets have secrets to themselves, you have to consider loyalty, the hardest thing. What happpens when some one asks you to keep a secret about soemthing ythey've done, but it puts them in danger, what do you do, be loyal or safe? It's one question which I don't think anyone will ever be able to answer correctly. So that's why I told, because shes my friend, I couldn't live with myself after whats she been through. It's unfair, so even though I begged and swore that I wouldn't tell I did, and yes a feel guilty, but keeping a secret is hard. The only secret I can keep is my own. And that's because mine actually are secrets, I don't tell people. When you tell a friend a secret, even someone you think you can trust it is no longer a secret. 'Cause you both know that the girl is gonna go and tell her best friend bitch and she gonna tell her bitch friend...etc...etc.....And pretty soon ALL the bitches will be looking at you, and think they are the special ones that know your secret.....

elliexxx